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Hard Candy “Feelin Blue”

I’ve been working on learning how to do eye makeup for a few weeks now, since it is probably the one thing I really am not good at. Today I decided to play around with the Hard Candy eyeshadows that I had gotten a while ago, but never really have used, since, eyeshadow is not really something I use daily. I used the “Feelin Blue” eyeshadow set and decided to experiment with it a little bit

 

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I chose the blue colors today because I was wearing a blue shirt today and I thought it would be cool to match my eyeshadow to my shirt. yay me. lol.
What I really like about these eyeshadows it that they are so pigmented and you don’t really need a lot of it to have some serious color going. Pricing at around $6 at walmart, they really make for the ideal thing a beginner like myself to start with when it comes to eyeshadow.
Plainly put, I love it.
I played around with it for a little bit and the end result was really nice in my opinion.
For the rest of my face I used my Revlon ColorStay foundation, which I haven’t used in a while and I was sad to find that my opinion on it may have changed. I hadn’t used this foundation in maybe 4 months, and today I opted for it. I like that it is full coverage, but upon applying it, it felt very heavy and not like the other foundations I’ve been using which have been very light and give off a natural glow to the face. This one seemed really heavy and a little difficult to put on, as it became extremely streaky while applying with my brush, so I switched to a beauty sponge to remedy the problem. I really want to think it’s because the foundation maybe needs to be replaced, but maybe it’s because, as I much as I don’t want to admit it, I have fallen in love with Covergirl’s “Ready set Gorgeous” foundation. Maybe it’s time to try something else by Revlon? Not sure.

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I finally gave in and got a nude lipstick by Jordana!!! Surprisingly enough, I ended up loving it. Jordana is extremely inexpensive makeup and the lipsticks I got were around $2.99 each, so I did pick up a few, and I REALLY love the lipsticks. They are matte, and the smell very nice, and they also wear very nicely. The foundation though, was not really something I liked, but that’s another post lol

In the end I was really happy with the way the eyeshadow came out, though I know I still need some more practice, and I really liked the nude lipstick I picked out as well :)

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Shortly after taking this picture, I went to make garlic bread, and for some reason the butter EXPLODED and got everywhere, ruining this perfectly awesome shirt I was wearing LOL but hey, at least I got a pic :D

The monotony of life

it’s a strange place to be in
Everything seems the same. It all starts to melt together into one boring clump of life.
Everyday, waking up and doing the exact same thing, eating the same things, always the same.
My life was never this way. I enjoyed a wealth of new things and places all the time. I have never liked staying still, or being in one place for too long..
But as they say, “opposites attract” I ended up with someone who hates the meaning of the word “new,” At first I thought I could deal with it. I mean, yeah, he’s a great guy. But sometimes you need more than just “great.” Sometimes the perfect person is NOT what you’re looking for. So after I realized this, I felt like an ass. “why would I want to date an ass?” I kept asking myself. and I don’t WANT to date a jerk, no one wants that. But it would be nice to share things with someone who can share them with me. This isn’t my fiance’s fault at all. But I am starting to resent him for it. For my own boredom, and my ever growing feeling of being stuck.
My fiance can be described in one word. “safe.”
he has had the same job for 7 years, which isn’t bad.
He’s comfortable being told what to do, what to want, and when to want it.
He sticks to what he knows and only that.
He doesn’t really have a spark or creativity and it’s very hard for him to see things past his own POV.
Now, these aren’t necessarily BAD traits. He’s attentive, he listens, he’s a solid person to depend on, he’s funny, supportive, and those things re appreciated.
But after almost 3 years, I feel that I am missing something. Something crucial. I feel like I am missing a part of myself. The part of me that loved making new friends, and doing new things.. I am missing the very part of me that brought my fiance and I together. So how can I be myself, while still hold on to a relationship.
Some say “Compromise” is the way, but I can’t help but feel I’ve been the one doing all the compromising. I’ve given up my independence, my want to travel, my friends, my way of living, I’ve not only compromised but given it up altogether..
Why do I resent the person I love for changes that he didn’t make me take..
These are changes I knew I had to make to make this relationship work.. and the question I keep asking myself is “is it worth it?”
Is it though? Is losing sight of yourself and your goals worth being in a relationship for?
Am I selfish?
Is he really just better off without ME? instead of the other way around?

Obviously I am in need of serious guidance.. -_-

Lancôme “Teint Idole Ultra” Foundation

about maybe 2 weeks ago I made up my mind that I would search high and low for a new foundation to try that wasn’t drugstore since I’ve tried a few and they’re not bad but hey, maybe the grass is greener lol
I went into Macy’s and was met with the most adorable makeup artist ever. He sat me down and put these creams and founadtion on my face and made me look amazing, so I said I WANT THIS.. I got this foundation and a sample of the moisturizer her put on me all for $48-ish, almost $50, which makes this the most expensive foundation I’ve bought.. Ever, I think.
Excitedly, I get home and I can’t wait to use it myself and see what this “luxe” brand is all about.
First thing I  have to mention is that the packaging is amazing. it’s very pretty looking and the bottle comes with a pump, which is just sublime. So, I wash my face that evening and decide to start using the moisturizer right away since I was in DIRE need of moisturizer.. so as I’m using the moisturizer, also by Lancome, I’m noticing my face is looking a little healthier and I love it. A few days go by and I decide to take out my newly bought foundation and try this on myself.
I really loved the way it looked on me. It gave my face this natural looking glow and it really does not look like I’m wearing makeup at all. I liked that a lot.. The only issue I found with it was that it is really not full coverage and I appreciate full coverage makeup a lot. This foundation at first when I applied it, I wasn’t really sure of it. and I don’t know if it’s just me, but as the day went on, it looked better LOL so by the end of the day I was really happy with it and didn’t wanna remove my makeup.
Now, this foundation IS really great and it looks very amazing and I’m glad I got it, but would I get it again? No. Mainly because I also picked up a Covergirl foundation and also tried it and found that it had a VERY similar effect. and I paid $7 for this Covergirl foundation which I REALLY love. So if I can get a great foundation that doesn’t look cakey, gives a nice glow to the face, and wears naturally and lightweight, I’m going for Covergirl. it’s convenient and inexpensive. Not that Lancome isn’t a great option if you don’t mind spending a little more, but “beauty on a budget” is my motto, what can I say, I’m frugal that way.

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The Covergirl foundation in question, I’ll leave for another post. My favorite drugstore foundation is still by Revlon. As far as higher end stuff, Lancome just wasn’t for me. But hey, I’ll keep looking :D

“low-Hanging pants now a crime in Ocala”

Read Ocala.com ‘s article HERE!

 

Today I saw that my hometown of Ocala, FL had passed a law on “sagged” pants that includes a $500 fine and an up to 6 month jail sentence for what is now a “second degree Misdemeanor offense.” At first I was like “yay” and then I thought about it.. and because very torn.
On one hand, I hate seeing people walking around with pants literally down to their knees. But on the other hand, it’s really no one’s business what someone else decides to wear or how to wear it.
There have been laws like this all over Florida, but a good part of them have been repealed and seen as “unconstitutional” which I can agree with. But there’s so many other cities out there not just in Florida that have implemented this ruling and has worked great.
Cities in New York, New Jersey, California, and Florida have banned the use of saggy or “hanging” pants, calling it a “vulgar display” and “disrespectful.” and have aimed at keeping these law in place in the “interest of common decency.”
Now, I completely agree.. it looks distateful, it looks trashy and dirty and all that.. but is it really enough to have the Government interfere with our closets? Should we be dictated on what to wear and how to wear it?

I agree that everyone should dress like they have some sense.
what I do not agree with is being told what to do or wear and how to do it or wear it. That will never be ok, thus my being torn.

This ban has gone on to be called “racial profiling” claiming that the law is only aimed at black Americans.. This, to me, is something I find ridiculous because I KNOW for a fact that black Americans aren’t the only ones who sag their pants, and the law is very clear about “anyone” who breaks it. It says nothing about affecting black people in particular. there will always be people who make issues a racial thing, so I guess I’m not surprised there.

I’ll end this with a quote from an article on sfgate.com
“Saggy pants is a look borrowed from prison inmates who aren’t allowed to wear belts. But when society starts taking its fashion cues from the nation’s prison population, it doesn’t speak well of our culture”

 

This may be a subject in which I would really love to hear different inputs from people, so if you feel a certain way about this law, please do let me know! :D

 

My first Ipsy bag (WOO!)

So, I’ve been MIA for a bit. Lots of stuff happening.
Friend drama, work drama, apartment complex drama.. way too much for my life!
But in the midst of all this drama, this happened:

 

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I GOT MY FIRST IPSY BAG YAY!!! This came in a bright pink envelope that David (My Fiance) was too excited to way for me to open myself so he of course tore the bag open and opened all of the contents of my bag. He sucks for taking away my unboxing moment lol
The bag was also bright pink, pretty, a little cheap feeling. I wasn’t surprised there and I don’t really care for the bag since the odds of me actually using the bag is nonexistent.
Inside this pink bag of goodies, I got a Bare Minerals 5 in 1 Cream eyeshadow. I was really excited about this because I like cream shadows, it’s easy to wear, and it also acts like a primer. No losing there.
Next I got a Healthy Sexy Hair “Soy Renewal” Beach spray.. According to the bottle, it gives you a “beach look” while conditioning and texturizing and it also has Argan oil..IDK about most, but my “beach hair” look is normally not a pretty one.. Hence why I DO NOT go to the beach.. Ever.. So the thought of me using a spray that gives me beach hair is scary to me.. But since I have it, I will use it and see what happens lol.
Following that, I got “Dark Tanning Oil”.. No. just no.. This follows with the whole “I don’t go to the beach” thing. No tanning!!!
Lastly, I received a pop beauty bronzer and a “tinted” balm by PIXI

The items in the bag were somewhat expected, as we all in the middle of summer and I’m sure a lot of people will heavily enjoy the contents of their summer bag. I am not one of those people though lol. I’ll probably end up giving the tanning stuff to my mother, since she is a fellow beach goer…and will keep the bronzer and lip balm which I used and like :D

Looking forward to more ipsy bags! :D!

Facebook

Facebook is where we spend most of our time these days. It’s a great way to keep up with friends, family, and everything else for that matter. So it is no surprise that most, if not all of us have Facebook!

So with this said, I’d like to bring up my Facebook and ask everyone who reads this to please check out my page and if you like it, please like it!

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If you look around my blog you can also find my Instagram and Twitter pages and if you want to like them too, well hey, that’s even cooler :)

 

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Guilt.

I’m sleepless and guilt ridden for the way I spoke to my mother today. It was supposed to be an amazing day, and I was quick to accept the time off that was offered to me today at work just so I could spend some time with my family, as we all have different schedules and it is so hard to get us all to come together. They finally got to my place and I was so excited to have them over! We decided to go to the mall since we all were hungry and we all wanted something different -_- Once at the mall, my brother and I decided we wanted Panera.. so on our way to Panera, my mother blurts out the most random, most prejudiced thing I’ve heard in a while.. outloud.. in English.. in a mall full of people… I lost it. I don’t know what came over me, but I had it. I started lecturing her on how bad it is that she would say that and I became infuriated and pretty much blew up on her.. She got mad or embarrassed, or both and stormed off as we were getting to the Panera. I felt instantly so horrible, I knew that I had hurt my mother’s feelings, but I wasn’t sorry for it, just sad it happened.
After that we continued on with our day but I know she felt bad and I know I did too.. Shortly after, after we saw the fireworks, she decided to go home along with my brothers.
When she left I still couldn’t help but feel so horrible about the way I had blown up on her but I also wasn’t sorry for what I said and it made me feel confused, sad, angry and all sorts of other emotions, which lead to me going down to Wendy’s and buying the biggest burger I could and devour it and now I am laying in bed nauseous and feeling like shit about life..
On one hand I cannot feel bad about what I said to her. I feel I am entirely justified in the anger I felt at hearing my mother say such a borderline racist thing that I won’t even repeat out of respect for her. It is not right to look down on other cultures, nationalities, or people just because they are different. Not understanding different things doesn’t give us the right to dehumanize these people or notions and treat them like they are worthless or second class. I have never nor will I ever tolerate that behavior from anyone and hearing my mother say such things really hurts because she was person that raised me and she always taught us to embrace people, and difference, and individuality.. and to hear her sounding so close minded and against everything I stand for hurts.. But this should be no surprise to me since she’s always been this way.. But as of lately it seems she’s gotten more vocal about it and it is wrong. In every way, shape, and form, it is wrong and I cannot accept that. My biggest fear is that one day she’ll say the wrong thing to the wrong people and we won’t be there to help her. The thought that something might happen to my mother is enough for an emotional breakdown. I couldn’t bear it.
On the other hand, however, I felt like shit because I made her feel like shit. I know she was startled by my reaction and looking back on it, I was too, since I always find ways to settle issues by talking, I reacted very violently this time.. I know she was shocked and hurt by me talking to her the way I did, and in some way she feels she did nothing wrong by speaking her mind and like she said, she CAN do and say whatever she wants, but freedom of speech doesn’t always mean freedom from consequence.. and it’s the consequence part that scares the shit out of me. This closed minded way of thinking isn’t just hers, and I know that. It is a mindset formed by media, uninformed people, and the general thinking that just because something or someone is different, it must be bad and shunned. I can’t completely blame her because prejudice is all around us everyday of our lives, and there will always be more and more people who adopt this way of thinking.. But she should know better than most that being different is hard. She knows all of the things we went through, our house being vandalized, getting weird looks from people, and even her husband being asked to leave an establishment once just because of where we come from.. So knowing how hard it is to be different, to look different, and to even speak different, how can she be so ok with stereotyping and using slurs? How can she do to other people what has been done to us?
I can’t change everyone’s way of thinking, and I understand that. But I really do believe that everyone should learn to love one another and that is how I try to live my life everyday. Tolerance is the way through life. I love my mother to death and she is my role model, my hero, my everything.. but there’s some things I cannot agree with and I cannot be quiet about them.
I feel like shit right now, but only for the way I made her feel.. Not the point I tried to make.

a moment of vanity

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So I have a new scarf and all these new headbands that I decided to pile on my head LOL also spent my entire lunch hour playing with eyeshadows :) I’m hungry :( but I think I’m getting a little better at it lol!!
Of course, this is nothing fancy what I did, but to me it is a bug deal because I just am NOT good at using eye shadow. Since I was able to wear makeup, I have never been good with it lol I always ended up looking like I got punched in the face and that is def not a good look at all.. ever.. unless your look is “battered woman” then fine.. but that’s not the look I want lol!!
I’ll keep trying to do my best to implement eye shadow into my everyday routine, but I took an hour today just to do eyeshadow.. that’s a bit much. I seriously need to not spend an hour on my face lol.

Day 23: “Eyeshadow”

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These are by Hard Candy and I’m surprised that they work as well as they do. Eyeshadow is not something I’m very good at.. in fact, I heavily suck at it, but I’ve made the decision to start incorporating it into my routine since I do want to learn, so I had decided to invest in something inexpensive that I can learn with. So I bought the purple cased one first. I was so surprised at how nice the colors are, so I went back to the store and bought the other 2 palates so I can have more colors to play with lol. I’m starting small, nothing crazy, but I will get this down lol
So for someone who never gets eyeshadow, this is something cheap and great to start with! When I get better, I’ll be maybe investing in something with more variety, but for now, this has been more than perfect.

 

Has anyone ever tried these eyeshadows?
Any tips on eyeshadow I should know about?
I would love to hear it all lol :)